revelations, realizations..

Yesterday was the one year anniversary of my dear grandmothers death. I wonder if my cousin who missed her funeral cause her dog was sick thought of her. I no longer wonder why I don't communicate much with my extended family. It was also the anniversary of Glo's mothers death, which is kind of serendipitous I do believe. So we went to church. Aka synagogue, an experience I'd never had in my thirty three years, so I decided to go and try something new. Glad I did, cause now I know I don't. The services were quite lovely with all the singing in Hebrew and the temple is quite beautiful. But when the young Rabbi blessed the sick and then asked the congregation to say names he may have forgotten when his hand passed over them, well, that was it. Here is this man, balding, over weight, draped in wrinkled silk standing far above us with a hand outstretched slowly passing over the people seated below. I did not like the image this portrayed. Why must the people sit and worship in stone cold beautiful buildings when there are things as magnificent as trees close by? And how could a man, no less, create these trees and shores and earth and light? It just doesn't add up. Can one believe in God and evolution too? Cause my long lost cousin Ardi sure wants to get together for some good old fashioned girl time. Boy do we have a lot to talk about. And I'm sorry Mary, you are not invited.